The phase of hibernation! Think tank z on...

                                                                                                                                                                              Hibernation phase! Its difficult for creative people to complete this phase when they want to move towards the goal of their life,,, but,  demand of the time is to keep silence, postpone it for certain period of time, and that's because of your current priorities. Circumstances are not favourable for the cause and it is bound to be the period of silence before the actual storm. This phase use to be difficult for you because its your own realisation, mental conflicts, dilemma and a rebel inside you who is bothering you so much. You want to be a self reliant person, You want to feel worthy, the rebel inside you, knows no boundaries, the selfish, self centred nature of her forcing you to do whatever you want to do with your life but the other more sensible one inside you is stopping you to do anything irrelevant. This one is more charitable, reasonable, understanding,mature,experienced and thoughtful.
The rebel is still a child so she is innocent, straight in her demand, non calculative and freedom loving. Ageing is not an obvious phenomenon for her so she does not take any lesson from the past experiences. She does not know how to follow a rule, her freedom knows no boundaries ! She just want to listen to her heart and no one else!
But, the sensible one,,,,, she has all the experiences of the living world. She is the one who grows old with you, she got affected by the worldly things, she wants to learn a lesson from the past mistakes. She thinks before talking to someone, she is more a believer of once bitten twice shy.
Both of them live inside you but they are not in talking terms, they are much like the North and South pole of earth with all different properties and characters however their home is same and even the earth has to make some equilibrium between its poles to accommodate them properly so that it can retain its balance.
Experiences always matters in the living world and we are living in this world only,,,,,so you need to give a sleeping pill to the rebellious child when she is getting stubborn. She just need to wake up when you are really in a mood of pampering yourself. :-D
Otherwise, discuss with the sensible one, she will fetch some good, meaningful advices.......and while discussing I realise that hibernation can be a retreating phase. You just need to plan your future properly in the available resources  and the restlessness is gone! The truth is, you are no more a child,,,and doesn't matter that the child in side you is not growing old,,,but she bound to die with your own physical end!